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Lord,
I am frustrated.....
I don't know if it's the right way to be feeling, but I am...I just want my wedding to work out.. I want people to try for me but even on my biggest day some would say...people are still just thinking about them......How do i react when all i want to do is scream. because I Will never be able to make everyone happy.The wedding isn't where they want, it's not when they want or how they want....they aren't wearing what they want people to wear and...it isn't exactly how it should be in their eyes....uggh Lord i just want to know what to do in this circumstance. I don't know what to do and i dont know howto go bout doing it...but LOrd I am going to trust that you have all  the wisdom in this and are going to help me. 
Help me Lord with all of the planning that needs to happen,and help me to have knowledge in what is wise to do, and what is not wise to do. Help me encourage people when I can, and decide how to do the things that need to be done. Mostly remind me that regardless of what happens in the end if you are glorified and we are married nothing else needs to happen!
 It's so easy to forget that when you are in the midst of frustration. Lord help me realize that I need to trust you when i feel like no one cares, that my mom doesn't give a crap and everyone is just going out of obligation. I hate feeling like this and the self pity just may kill me.... 
 Help me trust you...help me know that you are the one who satisfies...
           Lord help Nicholas, he is so discouraged right now about our future. We don't know where we are going to live, and we don't know what is going to happen and that is so hard for him. Lord help us figure out what we can do to make the process faster, and make the process what you would like it to be. I am having a weird peace about it..but maybe that is ignorance. I just ask Lord that you would show nicholas you have everything in time and that You are WORTH trusting
 i love you Lord